And we're back...

Hi everyone it has been a long month since writing but I am back and will try to keep this blog more updated. Let's see what has happened:

1) I finally got my corneal transplant in my left eye on Aug 17th. Right now I am recovering. It's going to be a long process but one that I am so glad I got accomplished. I have to travel back to MIA next month to take out the sutures and continue taking eye drops until early next year.

2) While in MIA i had some epiphanies and so decided to try and make my life as comfortable as possible and not to worry about too much...it's a work in progress.

3) I officially resigned from the Saba Cultural Foundation on Sept 1. I just needed some time for myself and really didn't want to do carnival for a 3rd yr in a row I am sure there will be willing hands to assist.

4) Whitney, Whitney, Whitney...she is also back and I just love her cd. OF course Ms MC (Mariah Carey) will return with hers in late September and I am looking forward to that and all the great fall music that seems tobe coming out this year.

5) I got to see GI Joe and Inglorious Basterds both entertaining. I read in Entertainment Weekly the fall schedule of movies and let's just say I am so made Saba has no theater. Def one to watch for in the Oscar race is PRECIOUS with comedianne Mo'nique hope she gets nominated.

6) Work is very hectic lately and well I am losing a dear co worker but life goes on and I trying to see if I can go in another direction. I remain hopeful.

7) Tomorrow night my friend Paul invited me over to his and hi bf's place for a drink so I am looking forward to that and of course maybe some karaoke.

8) Finally in the pics you see I have a new look I am trying something different we will see how long that lasts lol

Here's looking at you kids thanks for reading.

Update on Life

It seems my last post was on July 20th and of course that was because the carnival festivities on our island had me tied down, being on the planning committee and all, that there was no time to post anything or hell I was just too damn tired to. The festivities were fun my blue costume worked well for me as I was skeptical blue was not my color. The group I was in won first place and everyone had fun. I of course had too much fun on the Saturday and got so shit faced my mom and two friends had to take me home but I digress fun was had by all. Then bright and early on Monday morning after the events I went to Miami to meet with the doctor who will be doing my corneal transplant on Aug 17th. That went well but it was scary at the same time because of the realization that it's almost here. I decided I needed to get my mind of it and the busy life of Saba and go to a movie so I saw Harry Potter which was great. I got back to Saba on the Wed and have been busy with work and will be until Aug 12 when I leave for the surgery. I have to do pre ops on the 14th. Speaking of work it just plain sucks like and I am trapped in it. I have a co worker leaving, two teachers leaving, (one coming in) and I am starting to feel the strain no matter how you look at it. I don't know how persons who work in social service can do their job I am tired of it and this is not what I signed on for in life. Right now I feel there are no real avenues for me to pursue and therefore Saba is home for now. I am trying not to be too depressed and really don't talk much to people about anything anymore because its the same song about what's put out there will come to you, hangin there blah blah bullshit. I am tired of my students and just feel I have wasted two years of my life even though there are small successes I have always given given given of myself and I am tired of it. I am 27 years old single, a workaohlic and living on a 5 square mile rock, yes I know by choice, but also because maybe I am just a frighetened kitten. Yeah I could have done more with my life and I have regrets but just have to live with that. Its Saturday and I should be at the gym but I dont even care about that anymore. My cistern is low and I have to find water to fill it since we have had a dry season money money money thats all I do and spend on never really myself just shit that happens to me. I hope everyone is doing a lot better than I am because internally I am slowly dying.

The Windy City

So the weather has been crazy windy and rainy which I don't mind. I much rather it now then next week for carnival ehehe. Speaking of carnival we have one more week to go before the festivities start. Last night was kind of boring so I popped in a Michael Jackson Live in Bucharest DVD that I got and let's just say I was totally reliving my childhood. I always remembered growing up I wanted to sing and dance. I know I couldn't be like Michael but I wanted to reach people through music and connect the way he did. It was awesome. I have also have a Rihanna concert I plan on watching later this week. I have one and a half week left to get my body in a shape to be revealed with the costume that is coming in this week lol so I am hoping for the best. My students did their mock GED exam today I am hoping they did well fingers crossed I won't know until Friday. Have a great week everyone!

String of Bad Luck

Well it seems like I am hitting a string of bad luck. 1) Just found out I didn't win in the US Visa Diversity Program (Lottery) this year, again, for the 5th year in a row I am the Susan Lucci of getting a green card though I can't wait 19 years for a win. 2) The DELL team from St. Maarten called to say that the mother board on mye DELL XPS M2010 is basically, pardon the language, fucked. Oh but it gets better. (backstory) There was an issue with DELL and myself last year where I was having this system built online. Well it was taking weeks and weeks cause of missing parts etc and no one could give me updates so I was like screw that and cancelled the order. ! week later the laptop is in my mail at ICS which means they would had to have shipped it two weeks prior. So I said you know what I am always the nice guy and honest but DELL put me through hell so fuck this I am not calling them about it. I mean it had my name on it but it also had another person as well so who knows what the hell happened. Of course now that the mother board needs replacing the rep in St. Maarten cannot get it from DELL USA because the service tag is not in their system and whyyyyy because they basically sent me a free computer. Lesson boys and girls sometimes honesty really is the best policy so unless I can get this fixed I basically have a worthless $3000.00 computer which I didnt pay for and still cant use I guess its a win/loss situtation. Other than that I have been busy carnival is going well so far everything is mostly in place can't wait to see my costume. These past nights have been rough and I finally got some me time so I sat and watched Pedro which is based on Pedro Zamora who was a gay hiv positive 21yr old who appeared on the very first season of the Real World for MTV but then died on the night the last espisode appeared. I suggest you wiki him he was such an activist and a great spirit. The movie brought me to tears bawling it was humanistcally done. Last night went to a private reading of Tom Judson's Canned Ham one man show and it was really really good. Tom's performance was funny, witty, well written and a tear jerker in other words a two thumbs up dramedy. Tomorrow will be a tough day in the office and I will post that tomorrow or over the weekend because I can't reveal it now. Friday is our foundation's dinner and I am looking forward to that at Tropics. At least 23 or so persons who have worked along with us helping and volunteering will be honored with a free dinner and we wills ay goodbye to a great guy Len who is one of my teacher's assisting students with their GED lessons. Anyway I am going to sit and eat some ice cream and just reflect on Pedro and my own life and hit the sack after. Hopefully the string of bad luck will take a turn until then good night and good luck

Leave This Town

Got up at like 5:30 this morning and hit the gym for 6:30 because my cousin asked me to weewhack her yard which I did after the gym till around 9. Got home ironed my clothes for this week and then it was time to relax...that means working on carnival stuff lol this week we release minature size posters so cut them all out in order to cost efficient as we are running a tight budget. Thennnn I have been waiting to get my hands on a copy of Chris Daughtry and his band Daughtry's new album entitle Leave This Town and let me know he does not disappoint he voice is stronger than ever this being his sophomore album. Get your copy trust me you won't be disappointed...some tracks should def be on repeat mode. We got some much needed rain last and throughout today and hopefully we wont have it the week of carnival so better than it all comes now and makes the island look lush for the events ehehe. Well my Yankee candle is almost burnt out along with my body lol so I am just gonna chill and watch Indiana Jones Kate Capshaw makes me freaking laugh I wish t hey would have brought her back for Crystal Skull but alas! Enjoy the rest of the weekend tomorrow is the gym and hopefully some tanning.

Being...

This week has been full of all the makings of a spanish novella. It has been hectic conisderiing Saba's Summer Festival is just 17 days away from opening night and we still have quite a few things to take care of like money lol but for the most part everything is in place and it should be a great event. I am not sure I want to do the 35th Anniversary next its so time consuming and it's like having a second job even though I love being the PR person and secretary it does take it's toll when you combine it with your regular job. I am mostly looking forward to the parades and my costume that's where Ijust let loose and have a great time. This weekend I want to start to work on my tan and def hit the gym.

Also this week was MJ's Memorial and what a ceremon fit for a King. I think I would like my memorial done that way but on a smaller scale of course lol and Celine Dion would have to sing at mine as well as Mariah and Whitney. (I would discuss the incompetence of the Saba Cable TV but I rather not use my fingers for that I vented enough on facebook) but between CNN and youtube I managed to see the whole ceremony and even found a site that I got the musical tributes downloaded from.

I am so glad tomorrow is Friday wish I didn't have to work I am up right now working on an article for the local paper and cutting miniture festvial programs as we are trying to cut costs all in the name fun I tell you lol so before I get a paper cut good night and good luck ha when I saw that movies I loved that line so I think I will use each time I write on here...Good Night and Good Luck :-)

Writer's Block

So we finally got some much needed rain today. I stayed home for the most part and its a good thing because I got a tummy ache which is doing a little better now. Thought there was a new episode of True Blood tonight but that turned out to be a bust so Im watching reruns of 227 on dvd. Marla Gibbs was so hilarious I love her. Was trying to do some writing today as well getting back into the habit of writing what would be songs. It sucks that I can't read music or play an instrument I guess that woul dhelp the process a lot. But then I found out the Michael Jackson and Lionel Richie could read or write music either and they came up with We are the World so I am hoping all is not lost. At this moment I am having writer's block so I just put the pen and paper done for the night. I decided only to work 1/2 day on Tuesday as I wanna see the MJ Memorial on CNN. I have my white t shirt, blck pantsm, white socks and black shoes ready although no glove or hat its just my way of paying homage to this great man. There are only 3 weeks left before carnival and my schedule will become even more hectic but I am hoping to get some gym time in and running as the costumes for the group should be in soon. Hope everyone had a nice day and weekend.