To Be Human

As humans we must be the more frail of species. We are born, we live and then we die. During that time we are given the chance to experience a lot of things. I think the profound of these is to be loved. There is something about a stare, a smile, the funny way someone may twirl their hair whatever the reason the more prevelant of all of these is the human touch. It is powerful! When you are scared, happy, sad or just having a bad day when another human being wraps their arms around you and feel that kindered spirit of the other you are now safe, secure and nothing else around you matters because you know in the end everything will be ok for that one moment. I miss that very much. I can say I have only truly been in love one time though proclamining whenever I wanted doesn't seem fair now but that's how you learn and as I get older I realize more and more what I want and who I want or wish I could be with. Enough of my silly philosophy just kind of in a down mood at the moment...Last night I had pizza with a new friend and went to karaoke but didn't stay long. Today I was back in the gym after being out for two weeks. I went to Shuggie's funeral and watched two movies. It's about 6pm and I am listening to the closing score from Braveheart and its touching sums up my mood for today. So to be human or not to be human. Well to be of course to be, why would one want to be numb, to feel, to hurt, to cry, to laugh, and yes even to love no matter how brief it may be is the greatest miracle of all...I long for that just one more time....just his touch whoever he may one day be. Good night